Lately I’ve come to realize just how much of my life circles around lists and numbers.
There are times it makes me feel tied to these things, as if my life is too structured, but often I find them comforting.
It seems I constantly have a number of lists going.
I have at least 6 list apps on my phone. I’ve gotten into the habit of making a list of the next day’s tasks before going to bed (before you consider it crazy know this: it helps me put my mind at rest and stop dwelling on the day.)
The largest portion of my current job is a big list. I pick what goes in, where it lies, make sure it gets done, then make a new one the next day.
Grocery lists, things I need, things I want to make. Emails to return, somewhere things are on a list.
I am a planner. I am task oriented. This is what I do.
Again at my current job, numbers are vital. In many forms.
Time is another obvious way.
Of course there’s cooking, how much to serve, conversions of cups to ounces etc, and doubling or halving recipes.
There’s bills and money, and times, and dates.
Numbers are the challenging ones. Calories, pounds, time constraints, money, it can be completely maddening at times. Lists: I make; Numbers: I have to deal with.
So I’ve decide to combine the two, in a good way. One that I hope will both challenge and motivate me.
I recently celebrated a birthday, meaning I have a couple of years or so until I hit 30.
I’m going to make a list of things I want to do, and experience before that time. Most of the things I likely won’t detail on the blog. I find inner pacts like this to be deeply personal, and I think it can be difficult if not impossible to adequately convey what spurred a decision. I also don’t want the feeling of responsibility to anyone else, or as if someone is checking up on my status. It’s mine.
Ironically? I’m having a difficult time making it.
I want to find things that will push me, yet ones that aren’t completely unattainable.
Which means lately I’m asking myself many questions: “What do you want to do?” “What would you most like to accomplish, and how do you get there?” “What are you afraid to try?”
Hopefully I’ll have a rough draft soon. I’m open to suggestions.
Wish Me Luck.